In a Cage Fight with Demons!
If you are like me there are days you feel defeated. Almost as if there is no hope. You feel inadequate and insecure. Women talk about it, dudes won’t admit to it. But the truth is we all feel it. I wonder what your battle is? I don’t think I am alone in this.
Some christian people call this spiritual warfare but I think those terms do not do it justice. I am talking about real demonic activity present all around us. Sometimes its so thick I can feel it. I have never stood on the front lines of a battle field and watched a bullet fly passed my face, but Im thinking battling the demonic might compare. I have however awakened in the middle of the night sweating due to what felt like a brute force physical attack from my spiritual enemy. Some may say Im weird, but I want to scream this loudly in response. “Satanic attack on the “christ follower” is real!” “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms” (Eph. 6:12).
Those who risk their life and stand on the front lines of ministry battle often experience it the most. Thus far in my experience church planting I have discovered that Satan will find your weakness and he will expose them. Its not a matter of if, but when. It WILL happen. I don’t care how smart or talented you think you are. It will happen. I am a fundraiser, an administrator, an accountant, a pastor, a preacher, a substitute teacher, a community leader, an event planner, a husband, a dad, and sometimes a block party chef! They didn’t teach us these things in seminary. Over time that will narrow, but you can imagine I am often vulnerable and exposed. People regularly see me in situations where I am weak. My 10 years in ministry I have taken some darts but lately I feel like a dart board. Funny thing is nobody else can see it. I can. Vividly. Its loud, it stinks, and causes a high level of anxiety. As a warning: if you follow Christ you will receive attack from your enemy. If you didn’t know this already you have an entire force of darkness and enemy attack pressing against you. If you don’t experience it, you are not following Christ. If your life is easy and/or comfortable you are not growing. Satan loves those people because they are easy.
I’d say this spiritual warfare thing is more like standing in an octagon, cage fighting with demons. In all of this I find myself realizing an ancient principle, that Im in a losing battle. IF IM THE ONE DOING THE FIGHTING. I’m a fighter though. My entire life I have taught myself to fight. My first response to life’s difficulties is to fight, and most often I refuse to give up. Im too stupid to quit. Everything in our culture teaches us to fight. Culture say’s to get what we want we must go and get it, and that our destiny depends on us. My God however tends to do things differently.
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still (Exodus 14:14).”
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10).”
“Then Jesus said to His disciples, “‘Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me (Matthew 16:24).’”
“For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it (Matthew 16:25).”
“Yield now and be at peace with Him; thereby good will come to you (Job 22:21).”
I am on a constant learning curve, and progress is slow. But Im coming around on a daily basis. May we join our hearts together in encouragement. May we find a community of believers who truly do life together and lift one another out of the dumps. We are in this together and must live like it.